What I'll do..

dinner was good. fantastic actually. mum's such a great cook. steamed fish head (such bliss..), curry veg, pop corn chicken (yesss..!!), tempura prawns (omg..!!) and last but not least, "see hum"!!! envious? lol. i hope not. you people definitely have had better food. or rather that's probably the normal response from people. i have this friend who never admits instantaneously to anything i say. only after i have proven her wrong. lol. and this is what i love doing most.

i'm having a bad tummy now so i better be quick in this post. lol. anyways, i have thought about this the whole night. it just kept bugging me. had a hard time trying to fall asleep. shucks. i have actually two confessions to make. no no.. not the "Father forgive me for i have sinned" confession. a love confession actually. lol. i'm putting it in here because i know the two people will never read my blog. lol. i hope. lol.

well, the two confessions are just love confessions. or if that's what you call it. lol. i just like the both of them that's all. i did mention or rather hint, in my previous entries. lol.

i won't write their names down if not my friends who read this post will definitely laugh at me. lol. not like they haven't been. lol.

i shall call them c and y. lol. (omg.. if you are my friend, you'll definitely know who they are!!) lol.

c, i just want to say that i am attracted to you because of your ability to make me smile whenever i'm with you. and what i mean by this is, i don't feel in any way turned off by anything you did. in fact, i am perpetually amused by all your actions. the fast-paced nodding of your head is what i will always remember. even though you like to make me feel guilty for the things which i didn't do at all or are totally unrelated to me or you, i still feel happy around you.

"so it's my fault?!"

"yeah!!"

this is what you have said and will say to me. lol. i shall not narrate the whole story as i want to keep these to myself.

i wished that we could be together but i think due to circumstances, we could only be friends. i don't think you would be attracted to me in any way. or should i say, you seem the least attracted to me. lol. i admit that i'm unattractive. but somehow if i had a chance, i'll make you the happiest person on earth the best i know how.

thanks for all the happy moments that you brought me. i hope i did manage to reciprocate.

that's for c. and now for y. lol.

y, you are the girl that takes my breath away. i don't know why my heart skips every time i see you. i don't know why i just can't take my eyes off you whenever you are around. to me, you are really cute and pretty. and tall. lol. but i still like you. i really can't believe it when i got to talk to you for the first time and even got to know your name. it was the best time of my life. it was like "i should be so lucky!". i could still remember the times when our eyes met throughout the whole night. you smiled at me and my heart just stopped momentarily. lol. i secretly smiled to myself and shouted, "yes!!" in my heart. lol. i know i'm silly but it's exactly what i did. when i finally got to know you, my heart didn't stop there. i was even more attracted to you. you showed me your nonsense and i showed you my lameness. lol. given a chance too, i'll make you my princess and treasure you like a precious stone. i'll love you like no one else can.

please keep taking my breath away. don't stop or i'll be dismayed.

so after reading this, you should be thinking that i'm such a bastard since i want to be with two girls at the same time. no, i just want to be with one. it's a matter of choice only. i think i can choose who i want to be with right? and i would rather choose between two people that i like than two people who i don't like. i'm just striving for my own happiness and in the midst of it, provide happiness for the other party.

and right now i'm prepared to give them up because i don't think i'm equipped with the right stuff for them now. or rather for y. in the case of c, it's probably a case of "one way traffic". for y, it could be the same case but at least i can still fight for her. i don't think i put my thoughts across properly but i just want to keep it as original as possible.

well.. thanks for reading people.

all's mambo that ends well.